Has anyone out there been watching the show on OWN "Addicted to Food"? I have...and it scares me a bit...I mean, really scares me. When these people came to rehab all of them were talking about thinking about food constantly and about eating all the time. Even the two women that are "skinny" but still ill talk about thinking about food constantly...
I can relate to everyone of these people on this show...I think about food constantly...some days the smell of something sets me off in a crazed...I need that NOW!!! I was talking to D the other day and I was describing a coconut cake to him...All of a sudden he looks at me and says, "that's not right...it's only food". Apparently I was getting way to excited about the idea of this cake and was a bit to passionate in my description...
I mean there is a reason that I'm as round as I am tall. I love food, good food...I have more than once sent things back that didn't taste good...Life is too short to eat bad food if you don't have to.
I mean, I have known for years that I turn to food for comfort, for solace. The experience of my hands getting sweaty around certain foods depending on how good or bad I felt at the time...
I have been wondering lately how a person, ok, me-could go about just stopping. Just stop all of it...
Stop the binging...stop the purging...stop the not eating...
I mean how hard can it be to develop a healthy relationship with food? Bwa hahahahahahaha!!!!!
Yeah right...a healthy relationship with food...I'll believe it when I see it.
I would like to be one of those people that don't live to eat, but that eat to live...you know to eat high quality, well made food...
I would really like to try...
Is there an overeaters anonymous group in your city? I think you've taken the first step in admitting you have a problem -- now try to find other people who understand it so you can get help. It's pretty hard to go it alone.
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