Sunday, April 7, 2013


Monogamy means different things to different people. To some it means that there is one and only one romantic some monogamy means boring and crafters...monogamy is a highly controversial thing...

As a partner, I am painfully monogamous...I'm old dog loyal to my partner...and I expect the same from him.

As a crafter...I tend to be a hussy...I have so many projects many things in the works...there are soooooo many patterns and projects...

I have about decided to try craft monogamy...Yes, that's what I said...project monogamy.

I really like the idea of finishing things...and I need some control...ok...I need a lot of control.

I gave up guilt for Lent and well, I have decided to continue with the giving up of one else seems to have guilt that makes them do refuse to feel guilt that is imaginary or that I create unnecessarily. I have given myself permission to be ok taking care of me and making decisions that make me happy...I have also decided that it's ok if I get angry or sad or blue...I just need to deal with the issues.

I find as I age that I am craving healthier things...That I want to have some order and control.

I will be posting pictures in a few days of the projects that I am going to practice monogamy with...I hope that it works.

Take care and be to tend the dragons...

Thursday, March 28, 2013

Getting things together...

I don't know if anyone ever looks here anymore...or if they ever did. If you did, I apologize for the downtime...

In the movie "Coalminers Daughter" there is a part in the movie when Loretta Lynns character tells her fans that "either you run your life or your life runs you" in the life has definitely been running me...and it's time for a change.

I have days when I am so angry, I don't know why, but if you could power the world with anger, I could power the world...Other days, I am so sad that all I want to do is sit and cry...

For the last few months I have been trying to work on eating cleaner and healthier...for those of you who have read my blog and last years attempt at weight loss...yeah not so good.

I topped out at 322.8 pounds. This morning I weighed in at 294.4 pounds. Not too bad. It has been slow, but I have been able to maintain which is important. I am almost at a 10% loss. I find this exciting and motivating. I hope to continue to loose a bit, the doctor says 93 to 115 lbs. I laugh at her...a lot...At the high end, if you can call 115 lbs the high end that is 208 lbs. of weight loss.  Basically 2 people.

I am proud to say that my lateral tears are healing quite nicely and I started walking pretty regular, but my car broke down and I haven't been able to walk for a while...We have an elliptical, but did you know that you can be too short for an elliptical? you can and I am.

I am still in school and after talking with the advisor can see the end of the tunnel, but I have decided to extend the tunnel and upon graduating NWACC move on to JBU to complete a 4 year bachelors and to take the CPA.

I still work at Mocking Bird Moon as the Knit Dr. and love that. I teach classes and if anyone is interested will start a sock class in April and another "Unpattern" class in May, sign up is available now.

I have dubbed 2013 as take care of me and so far I have worked pretty hard to do that. I decided to give up my own imagined guilt. Some days are easier than others, but so far so good.

I have many projects working and will start posting more often with pictures and the like.

I will also be posting about some of the changes that I am working on making.

With a birthday on Monday, I intend to use it more as my "New Years" than I did January 1.

More to come and I promise, it won't be as long as it has been...

Gotta tend the dragons...TTFN