All I Can Say...

Yes...tonight...from the start...

It was me...from the pump action to the judge bored "stiff" and his shocked court clerk...it was me...

TTFN!

WOO HOO!!!

Finally!!!

After almost 2 years!!!! I Got A JOB!!!!!

Today was my first day and it was a good first day!  It feels like a good fit and I am looking forward to going back tomorrow.

Thank you to all that kept the good job mojo coming all this time!

Also, on the knitting front...

This weekend I will be launching a new group on Ravelry.  I will post a link to it here as soon as I get it done. I was going to do it today....but...I had to WORK!!!

Gotta tend the dragons...TTFN

Tuesday

I am proud to say that it wasn't me...

Of course, I am told that the bigger the group the less likely it is going to be me...

TTFN...

Dark and gloomy

It's funny. As much as things change, things really do stay the same. 

I have been very slack on posts recently and I apologize, but things got dark for me. I realize that there are millions of people out there that are depressed and can't see any light at the end of the tunnel...there are millions that are much worse than I am...but for me life has been a bit dark.

After trying kinda hard to loose weight, mother nature kind of took over and I gained a lot of weight really quickly. A lot, like 25 pounds in 2 months, a lot. I got really, really blue...maybe even black.

School kicked my ass last semester, I had a major block with intermediate algebra...I pulled a C...go figure. I knew something was wrong the day that I had a total crying, I threw my book melt down after working on the same problem for 5 days and had a tutor tell me to "just think about it. It's easy." D came home just in time to witness the meltdown.

My body stopped working, the fear of pregnancy was definiately there...no Aunt Flo for several months...went to the doctor to find out that why yes, Ms. Menopause was at the door...I have to say, I was not ready to hear that...

Needless to say that I have been trying to figure a few things out...to figure out what I want and where I want to go...what I want to do...

For the first time in my life I am very self conscouse about how I look...I guess weighing about 330 pounds on a 5 feet tall, small bone structure frame will do that...I look back at the TV shows about the 1000 pound people and we all ask, "OH MY GOD! How does that happen?!"...It happens when you quit caring and the people around you try to help and you sneak food and ignore their pleas for you to help yourself...You don't eat and take care of your self because you hate yourself, then you eat to feel better and then you hate yourself all the more for eating...viscous cycle.

I have begun to go to behavioral health to "talk it out"...to deal with the aggressions that I have...apparently, I have a lot of aggression and anger that causes the dark times...Funny thing is though, that I am pretty sure I know more about my thearapist than she knows about me...She says I am good at redirecting conversation away from myself...D says I blatantly don't answer questions about myself.

Mood swings suck...not sleeping sucks...being angry and sad sucks...being fat sucks...trying to change it all sucks...

We went on vacation to the beach and I equate all of this suckiness to climbing sand dunes...you work hard to climb to the top, only to have the sand shift and send you sliding back down the dune to the bottom...

So far, I've gotten back up and tried to keep climbing...most days I REALLY don't want to...I want to stay in bed and shut out the world...fortunately...my family won't allow that...

Thank God for my family...TTFN

For the record

For the record...

Yes, it was me that started the conversation...but...it is not my fault that Apple has THAT app for the iPhone!

For any of you Knaught Knitters and Crochety Hookers out there, until further notice we will be meeting at the Panera's in Bentonville on Tuesday nights, 6:30 pm to 8:30/9:00 ish.

TTFN...

Who Says the knitting and crocheting artists have no voice?

USOC, once again, do you realize the potential fundraising possibilities that you could have had?

I am very happy to see that as a community, we, artists that knit and crochet, were able to get the message across..

These folks need to realize and remember that as artists that knit and crochet we are not all "grandmas" or women or homebodies...we are a diverse cross culter of everyone. I bet that even some of Team USA does some form of fiber art to relax...would that mean that they too are considered part of the group that takes away from Team USA?

It is also nice that the USOC knows when to apologize...

The "Ravolympics"...oops! can't say that

Long time no post, sorry for that and more on that later.  If anyone out there is still reading...My most sincere thank you.

It has been brought to the attention of the knitting/crocheting world that the USOC (United States Olympic Committee) is a bit "unhappy" with Ravolympics and would like the name, patterns and all things that are associated with it removed. That they feel, "a competition that involves an afghan marathon, scarf hockey and sweater triathlon, among others, tends to denigrate the true nature of the Olympic Games. In a sense, it is disrespectful to our country’s finest athletes and fails to recognize or appreciate their hard work."

I find this amazing, if you go to their website, the USOC is asking for donations to add stitches to the American Flag in support of our Olympic atheletes.

Something that I find really very sad, that the USOC and the Olympic atheletes are so insecure and so pompus that they are theatened by a group of artists/crafters trying to acheive their best, while watching and supporting our atheletes attempt to acheive their best. It would seem to me that these folks at the USOC would have seen the Ravolympics as what it could have been...a win-win for everyone.

Knitters and Crocheters are historically very supportive people. See the Yarnharlot's page and the Doctors Without Borders donation total.
I really think that this could have all been handled differently, I think that there was a real possiblity that had the USOC thought for a moment about it, a huge potential for donations to support Team America could have been found.

I know that I have never compaired myself to an Olympic athelete, but I have certainly pushed to meet a personal best while watching the Olympics. It was a time for me to push myself and to watch these incredibly talented individuals work to achieve their personal best and a lifelong goal.

I understand that legally, the USOC has to protect their "logo". What they need to remember, we are Americans too, and were not trying to take away from the athletes, but to feel more at one with them and to offer unwaivering support for our team and country.

So very sad that these folks seem to be so threatened by a group of artists/crafters...shame on you USOC for demeaning us because of your insecurites...I'm not sure that I will be able to watch the Olympics, something I have done almost religiously for the last 20 years, because I know that the USOC thinks that we as knitters and crocheters are less...