Weigh in 2-19-12

Woo Hoo!!

302.4

I have been eating more regularly and it seems to be helping.

TTFN!!!

Weighing in

306

I came really close to not posting this week's weigh in. I could cry. I have sat and thought and I find that I am falling back into old habits and old eating patterns. I need to really get a grip on it and start eating better.

I am supposed to be getting my tax returns soon so I think when I do I will go grocery shopping and stock the freezer and cabinets with healthy food choices.

I have been lazy and I have to stop.

TTFN...

Restless

For the last week or so I have been feeling unsettled. I don't know if anyone else knows what I am talking about, but I have. A feeling of dissatisfaction and unrest. Of not being centered.

I find myself longing for things that aren't happening and probably won't happen...unless there are changes...Changes that I don't really know just yet how to make.

I have yet to find the true motivation to start adding exercise to my day, yet I still get really aggrivated when I don't loose any weight...I continue to think that I don't have time and yet there won't be time unless I make, or rather, take time. I am still struggling with the idea that it is ok to take care of me.

I find that I want to eat...not just a "hmm, I'm hungry" but a deep seated NEED to eat. I am so stressed right now. Once again Algebra is kicking my butt. I have to find a way to get a different mind set about Algebra. I have 18 hours this semester, yes I did that to myself, but to get everything done, I had to. J, my youngest, is making me crazy. He thinks he is 10 feet tall and has the attitute to match. My house looks like a goat exploded, for the animal rights people...chill...it's an expression.

I watched a show about hoarders the other day and was somewhat disturbed, not just by the mess, but by what one of the phsycologists said. She was talking about how people tend to think that hoarders are lazy and undisciplined, but that was not true. She said that most hoarders were very detail oriented and very much perfectionists. That if they couldn't do something perfectly, then they would get stuck and couldn't go forward.  That statement scared me...

I look around me and look at all the things that I need to do and I get so overwhelmed. I need to start and yet I can't find a spot to start. When I think that I have found a place to start it kind of snowballs into what else needs to be done to do this...Basically, I get stalled and lost and a lot of the time, I don't do anything. The show about the hoarders...it scared me because I can see how it could happen...

So many things need change and I so don't know how to go about it...

Must go tend the dragons...ttfn.

Weigh in #5

Who would have thought that about 9.6 lbs in I would hit a plateau?!

303.0

I suppose that I should be really happy that I haven't gained...but...something has to give.

I will make a concerted effort to add some form of cardio to my daily routine and *shudder* work with the bow flex.

TTFN

February Check In

Sorry for being a day late...5 page summary paper and got called in to teach a class at Mockingbird Moon.

So, here are the cold hard facts for the month of January.

       

	1/1/2012		2/1/2012	Totals
Weight	312.6		303	9.6	Pounds
Neck	18		17	1	Inches
Upper Arm	19.5		18	1.5	Inches
Wrist	7		6.75	0.25	Inches
Chest	55		53	2	Inches
Waist	56		54	2	Inches
Hips	58		56	2	Inches
Upper Thigh	31		30	1	Inches
Calf	23.5		23.25	0.25	Inches
				10	

I was a little disappointed that there wasn't more lost, but I got to thinking about it.  I lost almost 10 lbs and I did loose 10 inches. I'm on track and with proper eating and if I add exercise, I will be in a good place.

Now for the pictures...they aren't pretty...but here they are....

Looking at these I think I must really rethink my shirt options. 

Anyway...got reading to do...knitting content in the next few days...TTFN!